I should really be in bed...sigh

So, I should really be in bed, but I was reading some blogs and I felt compelled to post. Acctually I just realized I hadn't posted today or yesterday so I thought I should.

For any of you that don't know, I work with the Sussex Wesleyan Youth Group. It is an awesome youth group, with awesome leaders and awesome teens, and an awesome sense of the Lords presence whenever we get together, and that's awesome (I realized a trend and decided to go with it..meh). Tonight was an awesome night - my girls acctually payed attention to the lesson rather than telling stories, they contributed to the discussion, we hit on some issues in our lives that we all need to work on, it was all around good. I was blessed by the worship band as usual. I love those guys! They rock out, and they are so real and on fire for God, it's great. As well, Matt Keith delivered an anointed message that hit the teens, and the leaders for that matter, right where we needed it. Ryan has very exciting news about this night but I'll let him share that with you. All I'll say is be on the lookout in Chapel tomorrow ( I guess it's today now :))

I also had a very interesting but good experience tonight. You may or may not know that since I've some to Bethany (and before really) I've struggled with knowing the plans God has for my life. I claim Jeremiah 29:11 "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.'" That's the easy part however. It's the fact that I never know the plan that is frustrating. I know I need to trust God, but as I'm sure many of you can attest to that is easier said than done.

So now you will know why I find what I'm about to say so amazing. After youth was done one of the leaders (and also my friend) came up to me and said that as she was praying I came to her and the Lord told her to tell me that I was suppossed to be a Music teacher. Now, I know you can't always go 100% on what other people say, but I do also believe that God uses godly people to speak through, and she is definitely a godly person, so I am wondering now what I should do with this information. It's kind of exciting that maybe I have just recieved my "mission" if you will, but then in another sense it doesn't seem possible that is could come so easily when I've struggled with it for so long.

I just remembered an interesting thing - I can be a little hard of hearing when it comes to God so I have often said that if he has something to say to me if he could please hit me over the head with it it would be much apreciated. Maybe the Lord indulged my request. How cool would that be? Does anyone have thoughts on this? Advice? Whatever.

Well, my night is fleeting fast and I already think I'm getting sick so a lack of sleep would only make it worse. That's it for me. Good night.

"That is the ultimate in procrastination"

I wish I could remember exactly what he said, but this is very close. In case you are confused, that is what Jared said to me as we were walking out of music theory class. This was after I told him that I had done my music theory homework 1 1/2 hrs before music theory class.

This may seem like a long time, but when you consider the assignment was choosing a Psalm and putting it to an original melody, having it written on staff paper with words, phrasing, breath marks, correct rythm, and at least legible enough that she could read it, it begins to take on a whole new meaning.

Now, having said that, I had already chosen my Psalm. It was a passage that I happened to read alot lately, and it had a great line that stuck out to me _ "...even at night my heart instructs me..." I don't know why I like this so much. I guess I think it is so neat to think that even as we sleep the Lord is still working on us. No time is wasted with the Lord. As well, I didn't have every single element present in my written work, but none-the-less, I think that's pretty good for an hour and a half.

It's sad really how disorganized and how much of a procrastinator I can be. And it's not like I didn't try to do it earlier. I sat in one of the practice rooms for an hour before supper yesterday playing different melodies, trying to find one I liked, but no such luck. Sometimes it's as if I can't do anything unless I have the pressure of the deadline fast approaching.

Oh, and you may say, set a new deadline, make the assignment due earlier on your calander so you still get the same effect, but you have it done in time. That is a very good suggestion, but I've tried that, and I still know in the back of my head that the assignment isn't really due till whenever it is really due, and the motivation is gone. It's just like when you set you clock 5 mins fast hoping to arrive to things earlier. It sounds like a good idea at first, but inevitably you always remember you set your clock fast and you adjust accordingly in your head. So, it seems rather pointless all these faux deadlines and fakes times.

While I'm on a rant, I have to rant about something else. I don't remember ever being as busy any other year as I am right now. I know that as the years pass, the work should be getting harder and longer so I guess it's natural, but I don't like it. Maybe I'm too used to being a slacker, so this having to work all the time is just an adjustment for me, but is it normal to feel like you have no free time, that you have to go from one homewrok assignment to the next, from one comittment to the next, with not even a chance to breath hardly? I don't know, I just don't like it.

Yesterday was good though. I ignored the things I needed to do ( my music theory homework being the primary thing), and I watched two wonderfully suspenful movies.

The first was Along Came a Spider with Morgan Freeman and Monica Potter. Monica Potter is one of those actresses that looks really familiar, like you've seen her in a bunch of movies, but you can't remember which ones. We were talking about that last night acctually, and none of us could agree where she was acctually from. So, for anyone who wants to know, I give you the IMDb. Otherwise known as the Internet Movie Database it will tell you every movie or TV appearence a celeb has ever done. It's amazing!

http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0005321/

This is the one for her.

So, back to the movie, it was suspensful, and had a bunch of twists, and it had Morgan Freeman, and I love his acting, and it was all around very good. Plus, I was watching it with great friends of mine who I do not hang out with enough so that was also very good.

The next movie was Sleeping with the Enemy - Julia Roberts. This movie is a classic! I love it. I know this movie, so theoretically I should not be scared when the scary parts come up, but this time I was. Maybe it's because I had just watched the other rather suspensful movie, I don't know. But at the end, which I will not disclose in case some of you have not seen it, I have never jumped so high, or screamed so loud at a movie. I was so scared I started to laugh. Reverse coping mechanism perhaps?

Well, this post has gone on long enough, and I need to get to lunch so I can eat some cafeteria crap and have a lovely chat with my fiance. I do so love him :)

Bye for now ya'll ( that's my fiance rubbing off on me)

So soft!

Can I just say how much I love Nivea Soft? I guess I can do whatever I want, it's my blog! If you have never tried it, it is a really amazing lotion by (no surprise here) Nivea. It is light, and has a very refreshing scent. The commercial says that it feels like summer rain on your skin and I didn't believe them at first, but now I know it to be true. It is just very nice. In Canada it's pricey - 10 bucks for a tub which is only 200ml, but I think if you live States-side you can get it for half that amount. I'm sorry if you are a guy or just not interested in this, but for anyone who likes beauty products I highly recommend trying this.

My fiance's a goof, but I love him...

So, Ryan hijacked my last blog. It's my fault I guess, I left the page open on his computer.

We were in Halifax this weekend for Canadian Thanksgiving and it was very nice. I love my family. I also love a break from school. It was back to the grind today, but it was a good first day back.

Side Note: The school year is moving very fast and it doesn't seem possible. Mom told me today that we only have 7 more weeks until we're home for Christmas break. Isn't that crazy? I guess I should enjoy the semester before it's gone.

Well, I gotta get to bed. It's late and I have an 8:00 class tomorrow morning. That's all for me.

P.S. I really am going to try to write more often. What I didn't fully say in the last blog is that I forgot Ryan put on his blog that I now have a blog so I thought no one was reading this yet. Maybe no one is. Sorry if you are and are getting bored. This is new stuff anyway.

It's good to be home...

Sorry I haven't posted in awhile. I hadn't really told many people about the blog so I figured no one would be reading and it didn't matter when I posted next. (But now I've hijacked her blog... Muhahahaha! Except I'm not all that creative and I can't think of any witty phrase to come up with to spam her blog with... She is beautiful and wonderful and amazing though eh?)

Getting in on it

I don't know why, but tonight while I was reading other people's blogs, I suddenly had the urge to create one myself. And so I did. I can't promise you that I will post alot, or that what I say will be very interesting, but here are my thoughts for what it is worth.

Well, let's not waste any time. I have stuff to say already. Firstly, I am VERY busy. My load has been lightend a little since I passed in my paper for Church History on Friday which required 10 hours of reading (of the writings of an ancient church father) as a pre-requisite. Now all I have to do is finish an inductive of the book of Genesis before Tuesday at 8:00 am and I'll be sitting pretty. While working all day without any breaks is no fun, I think the thing I'm most sad about is that I haven't had any time to do wedding planning, and there is lots to be done.

On that subject, do you know how hard it is for a girl who had her heart set on a Fall or Winter wedding to choose colors for a wedding in May? I always assumed that I would be able to work it out that I would be married in Fall or Winter, and I was set for either one, but it did not work out that way so I am having to rethink things a little. It's not that big of a deal though. I have enough wedding magazines and enough ideas in this brain of mine that I should be able to come up with something. It will be a challenge, but a challenge will be good for me.

Well it's late and if I'm not going to do school work I should really be in bed so I will end this my first post as a blogger. I feel so with it now. Watch blogging go out tomorrow or something. Ha.

Hope anyone who reads this enjoys it!

P.S. About my name, Beth is my middle name for anyone who doesn't know, and I was called Sarah Beth alot when I was younger. As for why I chose to go with that, I was gonna put something that had my future last name in it, but I'm not that last name yet, and I thought about something with my current last name in it, but I didn't want to have to change it once I got married (lazy, I know). So, I decided on the two names that aren't changing. Maybe you don't care to know why I chose my name and I'm sorry to bore you if you don't, but I wanted to explain. Oh, and another random note; I chose the font cuz it's the same font we use for the bulletin at my church at home. Kinda makes me feel connected in some small way.